Update

God has really been working in my life, and opening my eyes! He is so perfect, and His love is so amazing! My walk is getting stronger now, it was a trying week last week. I started to find myself seeking fulfillment through alcohol, and that is a path that just leads to destruction for me. I do not know why I struggle so much with alcohol consumption. I know for a fact there is no good in it for me, but I continue to go after it. This world truly has nothing for me. I come to realize that more and more each day. The only person I can truly depend on is Jesus. I am so thankful for Him. Please be enough for me Lord.
Friendships in this world mean nothing if Jesus is not at the center of them. If He is not, someone is bound to get hurt, and sometimes they can get hurt deeply. God, heal this pain in my heart, and let me solely lean on you! I cannot take the pain that people keep inflicting on me. It is so difficult. Living for you is not easy, but I will not stand down because a relationship with You is worth fighting for and worth fighting hard for you.
Jesus died on the cross so I would be able to lean on Him in times of need! Lord I need you now. You are the only strong friend I have. Thank You so much for being there for me!