Jesus

This world will fail us over and over again, the one thing that will always be there is Jesus. He will never leave or forsake us. People need to really show unconditional love, because without that we will always be disappointed by the people in our lives. A good friend just told me that if we truly love people with an unconditional Christ-like love, than no matter how much they hurt us our love for them will not change. I want to love like that. Show me how to live right for You Lord. I want to be a light for you in this world. Help me to lead people in the way Everlasting. My Savior is so amazing, He can move some mountains, and He can and has changed my life so much, its impossible to put into words!

Update

God has really been working in my life, and opening my eyes! He is so perfect, and His love is so amazing! My walk is getting stronger now, it was a trying week last week. I started to find myself seeking fulfillment through alcohol, and that is a path that just leads to destruction for me. I do not know why I struggle so much with alcohol consumption. I know for a fact there is no good in it for me, but I continue to go after it. This world truly has nothing for me. I come to realize that more and more each day. The only person I can truly depend on is Jesus. I am so thankful for Him. Please be enough for me Lord.
Friendships in this world mean nothing if Jesus is not at the center of them. If He is not, someone is bound to get hurt, and sometimes they can get hurt deeply. God, heal this pain in my heart, and let me solely lean on you! I cannot take the pain that people keep inflicting on me. It is so difficult. Living for you is not easy, but I will not stand down because a relationship with You is worth fighting for and worth fighting hard for you.
Jesus died on the cross so I would be able to lean on Him in times of need! Lord I need you now. You are the only strong friend I have. Thank You so much for being there for me!

Update on ME

It has been a few months since my last post, so I figured it was due time. Since November, I have been pulling a 3.25 GPA at Boise State. God has been doing amazing things in my life and in my heart. It has been a huge blessing to see all of my brothers and sisters in the Lord reaching out to me more. My best friend Nyssa and her husband of almost one year, Chuck invited me over for pizza on Friday night, and then we went to a game night at a mutual friend's house. It was so awesome getting to spend time with them. I love being able to be around people all the time. One of the hardest things for me, is that I do have a lot of friends but not too many close friends. Do not get me wrong, I love all of my friends, but it would make things so much better if I had another best friend. Nevertheless, I am thankful for where God has me now. My grades are better nwo, than they have ever been. God has really placed it on my heart to move out, but I do not have money or a job to do that. I cannot quit school, because I need my degree to teach. But, I want to be independent, because I hate always depending on my parents. I am thankful for all that they have done for me, but I need to be on my own. I hope that God will provide me with a good job for the summer so I can save up some money to move somewhere. Don't get me wrong, I am thankful my parents let me live at home rent free, but it feels like they hold it over my head. When it comes to my curfew and the ridiculous rules at my house, I am 22 years old, most of my friends live on their own and do not have ridiculous things to do at home. It would be a huge blessing to be able to be on my own to prove to myself and to my parents that I am able to handle that responsibility. Well that's all I have for today.
God bless!